I’ve been thinking about writing this post for a while, and I couldn’t figure out what to write.
You see, I’m scared of a lot of normal things, like heights, random noises in the dark, and death. But that seems so trivial, compared to the biggest thing I’ve ever feared.
I fear change.
And I’m not talking small change, like taking a different bus to work, but the big changes in life that accumulate from little moments.
Like being best friends with someone from high school, just to drift apart slowly over the years, never to speak again. Like the fact that in a few years, after my degree, I’ll have to face the change of going into the normal adult world instead of being at school. Like the fact that one day, I might not recognize the person I am now.
I know there’s nothing I can do in the face of change, that it’ll happen no matter what. But sometimes, I’d love to slow down my days so that it’s not too soon that I face a completely different outcome than what I put in my life. Who knows, that extra Friday afternoon in a park with a friend might change my future, and I want to remember that moment the rest of my life.
What do you guys fear? Leave it down below, and it doesn’t have to be as deep as mine!